Well it has been a while since I post anything on this blog. I actually deleted all the previous posts that had been on this site at one point. Not sure why I did it. The posts were written during a time when I was in a lot of pain- mental pain. I wasn’t taking anything or doing anything to help myself during that time. My emotions and moods were paper thin. Anything (and almost everything) set me into the downward spiral of crippling anxiety attacks. I wrote in those deleted posts about how I saw death by my own hand as a viable escape. Maybe I should have kept the posts. I don’t know. They weren’t from the heart, but rather from a head that was sick.
I was able to pull myself out of that hole with help from my doctor who recognized that I needed to be back on my medication (a medication I had been prescribed but had stop taking). Being back on medicine has saved my life. I am able to process “life” much better and don’t feel as overwhelmed as I once did.
I really do want to write here more… maybe as a cathartic exercise to process my experiences but also as a way to be creative… to be a story teller…. or a journalist. To relate what is the reality of my life to people (if any) that may read my words.
So….here we go again….